Post by kezza on Nov 8, 2006 3:56:49 GMT -5
Hi gang,
I no sooner introduce myself around here than I vanish into thin air. What's been up, you may or may not have been wondering? A quick update that you can read or skip, your choice... it's here anyway.
I was blessed/cursed (depends on your POV) with several "wiring defects" in my brain, among them Generalized Anxiety Disorder and Attention Deficit Disorder. My doctor put me on a medication for the ADD a while back, which I have not been loyal to. As a result, when we lost my first grandchild in early September, the GAD kicked in big time. Because my doctor had said the ADD medicine had a side effect that helped with the GAD, I started up on the medications again.
Within a matter of time, I quit my job (due to lack of focus, even on medication!)... began having night terrors involving an abusive ex-boyfriend... and almost completely shut down. It got worse and worse, and I began having panic attacks just hit the back of my head like a freight train, fainting spells, suicidal thoughts, etc.
Turns out that one of the side effects of the ADD medication is an INCREASE in anxiety/panic. So I've spent the last couple of weeks getting off of the medication once more... and it's been very rocky.
I'm just now starting to get past the tremors and I'll be finding myself another doctor to help with the medication changes once I have health insurance again. (We lost it when I quit my job, and my husband doesn't get to enroll again at work until next month.) In the meantime, I'm working very hard at getting back to some semblance of normalcy.
Looking forward to getting better acquainted with you all, and hoping this note finds you all well...
Love,
Kezza <3
I no sooner introduce myself around here than I vanish into thin air. What's been up, you may or may not have been wondering? A quick update that you can read or skip, your choice... it's here anyway.
I was blessed/cursed (depends on your POV) with several "wiring defects" in my brain, among them Generalized Anxiety Disorder and Attention Deficit Disorder. My doctor put me on a medication for the ADD a while back, which I have not been loyal to. As a result, when we lost my first grandchild in early September, the GAD kicked in big time. Because my doctor had said the ADD medicine had a side effect that helped with the GAD, I started up on the medications again.
Within a matter of time, I quit my job (due to lack of focus, even on medication!)... began having night terrors involving an abusive ex-boyfriend... and almost completely shut down. It got worse and worse, and I began having panic attacks just hit the back of my head like a freight train, fainting spells, suicidal thoughts, etc.
Turns out that one of the side effects of the ADD medication is an INCREASE in anxiety/panic. So I've spent the last couple of weeks getting off of the medication once more... and it's been very rocky.
I'm just now starting to get past the tremors and I'll be finding myself another doctor to help with the medication changes once I have health insurance again. (We lost it when I quit my job, and my husband doesn't get to enroll again at work until next month.) In the meantime, I'm working very hard at getting back to some semblance of normalcy.
Looking forward to getting better acquainted with you all, and hoping this note finds you all well...
Love,
Kezza <3